After reading a friends blog this morning I started getting that itch. The itch to write. The itch to just let the words spill onto the paper, or in this case, screen and get it all out. I will warn you now. There is going to be no rhyme or reason this post. If I feel it, I’m going to write about it. So if you are one of those people who can’t handle more than one subjects at a time, you may want to just keep on browsing. This post will be a perfect mix of what is in my mind at the moment. I’m going to let you in. Scared yet? You should be.
Right about now I should be popping my Pilates DVD in and changing in to my super comfy workout clothes for some total core work. I’m not. Why? I decided i wanted to write instead. So I’ve closed all my browsers, turned my phone on silent and disconnected from the world I know. There will be plenty of time to do my 30 minutes workout later. It’s only 30 minutes. I have tons of 30 minute blocks in my day.
I realize I need to find a balance in my life. I want to write, I want to work out and be fit, I want to be active in the progress my husband is making on my/our project car. (Yes, it is going to be mine but he is working so hard on it) I want to spend time with my kids. My youngest son who just turned 12 loves to settle down the nights he is with me and watch movies together. It’s kind of become our thing. I want to read, which I haven’t done in several weeks. My oldest son thinks I’m a taxi service. There are so many other “little” things like cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, visits with friends, that I could add in. Life isn’t very cooperative when make a schedule so lately I’ve just been “going with it” and I must say, I’m not very good at that either.
Maybe this won’t be such an issues in a few months. After all, I will be finding myself among the many unemployed as of April 30th. That is another thing that I’ve been thinking about lately. What to do? Where to go? I have been at my current job for 8 years. Now I have to start over somewhere else. Will I be able to find a job that pays enough to continue providing for my family as well as I do now? I’m losing my heath insurance and for those of you who know my family know my husband has health issues we’ve been dealing with. That is worry of mine. Up until recently I’ve tuned out all the crazy talk of Obama care and the issues with health care. I had health care. Now I am among the millions who will be struggling to find it. Enough of that, I don’t want to think about it right now.
On another subject all together, I’ve been thinking about this amazing group of women I’ve recently met. In November I was scrolling through Facebook one day and saw a picture in my news feed someone had shared about a 20 minute body Challenge. At this point I was so sick of feeling how I felt. I hadn’t worked out in so long except maybe here and there. My attitude sucked. I wasn’t a happy person. No real reason why, I just wasn’t. The host of the challenge was Brett Hoebel from RevAbs. I loved that workout. I looked into it a little and saw that it was a free challenge and the workouts were on youtube. Why not? I thought. So I signed up. The challenge wasn’t on FB. It was on a website called Challenge Loop. I knew someone somewhere had started a group though so I searched the challenge on FB and came up with two groups. I wasn’t sure at the time whether these groups were just for certain teams or certain people but I asked to join both and by the next day was accepted to both.
One group turned out to be very inactive. The administrator posted the workouts and post from Brett daily and she tried to get everyone active but the members just weren’t biting. The second group though, this one here turned out to be amazing. Apparently it was a group of ladies that did a previous challenge a few months before. They were already chatty and friendly when I joined. I was welcomed right away and a few more new members were added. That is how Accountonme Began. 🙂 For two months, these ladies have been there for me when I needed to vent, when I needed a little motivation, when I needed a laugh and when I needed hug. The amazing thing about us is that we are all just average women trying to make it. We aren’t even all in the same country let alone state but we make it work. It has made me determined to visit Poland one day so I can meet my girlfriends I have already learned so much about. The y already know this, but they are amazing.
I think people should build each other up. Why break someone down? Why belittle any effort they make to better themselves. I’m not just talking about weight loss or muscle growth, or even eating better. I’ve seen it happen in so many life situations. Positive motivation goes so much farther than negative feedback. Even if you don’t agree. I mean, who cares really if someone is posting their daily workout on their FB wall. It doesn’t effect you at all. They do it for them! Because it makes them feel good to be accountable and show off their hard work. If you don’t like it, hide it, block it, unfriend them. I will bet that there is someone out there that doesn’t like what you post either. Chances are if you are judging someones positive FB post you are the the person who gets off telling the world about your struggles and drama. I don’t tell you to stop airing your dirty laundry on FB, don’t tell me or anyone for that matter to stop posting their uplifting post. YOU control what you see.
I try to keep all my post positive. Does that mean I’m happy all the time. Hell no! Who’s happy 100% of the time. Someone fake, that is who. I just choose to keep my negative life to myself or those I am close with. I struggle every day with the same things you do. I get mad at my husband, my family, my kids, my friends, my job, the people on the street. It isn’t that these things are perfect in my life. I just choose to not let them be an issues. I have work to do on that as well. There are a few things I still have a hard time controlling when it comes to my feelings and emotions but I’m only human. I just don’t flaunt my negativity. I don’t let it fester. I pick and choose my battles. I can’t win them all as much as I would like too. I know I’m right all the time (:) ) But sometimes I let other think they are too!
Okay, my time is dwindling down so I just want to thank everyone who is reading this for letting me unload. There are so many more thoughts in my head but I guess they will just have to wait until next time.
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Have a great day friends!